Some odd feelings today...
So, my old roommate e-mailed a whole group of people, myself included, with the following news:
Wanted to share some exciting news with you all.
J and I are expecting!!
Attached are some pictures of our ultrasoud today. It was a screening ultrasound, not one to find out girl or boy, that is later in March. I am 13 weeks and 1 day today with my due date as August 6.
K is very excited about being a big sister.
Hope all is well with you all. Talk to you again soon!
I'm very excited for her. How can you not be excited when there's a new baby coming? But you know what's really odd?
There's a part of me that feels a little jealous. It's a weird thing. I already have my little one (and I even had my baby more than a year before she will have hers, so I know I'm not feeling jealous for any competitive reasons), but I can't shake this weird feeling.
I just really enjoyed being pregnant. And I really enjoy my little boy.
But I think it's normal. My neighbor at work told me that I can expect this feeling for the rest of my life. Even after Baby C is grown with children of his own, she said, I will still look upon newly expecting mothers-to-be - especially first-time mothers-to-be - and feel a strange twinge of jealousy.
And at the same time, I'll snicker silently knowing that everything that life will never go exactly as planned ever again.
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We were really blessed with an easy baby. Honestly. No colic, no major issues except for eczema and some sensitivity to stuff in my diet. He latched on easily, I had a super easy pregnancy and a great delivery (except for the pushing part - no one warned me about that), and he's got such a great temperament. So, I can look back fondly very easily already.
Except for the whole sleeping thing. But he's sleeping through the night now (fingers crossed as I knock on wood), so that may become a distant memory one day, too.